is this all just in my head, i just need lindsay right now to hug me kiss me tell me im beautiful hold me some more and take this all away, i really miss him, i feel like i am nothing with out him by my side.
Today was a good day, it was fine till certain people annoyed me on the bes! but fine with Lindsay he is the most protective(in good way) sweet caring guy! so i feel asleep on him on the way up! Today i went to carousel and didnt even buy myself anything nothing! made me sad. I went into Ally coz i love there dress but ever dress i liked a couldnt find my size it was all 8 or 6s which upset me more then it should. i felt really fat and bad about the way i look. i hated to look at myself coz ill i could see were my lumps and bumps. all because hey had none of my sizes which isnt that big a 14 does me! but yeah lindsay made me feel better about myself like he usually does. then i went and bought all my other pressies, like ; Grandma: Scales and book stand Chelsea: watch purse pen set and earrings Friends: Jewellery I ended up looking at most jewellery shops with lindsay to see if they had anything i like for lindsay to buy me :) But didnt end up finding anything i really liked! so i gots a new straighter and curls which i needed mines not to safe. Then lindsay was being a pain and not telling me what he wanted to we went looking, he come across speakers set he like but yeah didnt want to me to buy it because it was expensive but i did anyway :) Then it was time to go home i felt thirsty so i went and got a bottle of water, after that i felt like shit i had heat stoke.. but lindsay was there he looked after me like a good lindsay i really do love him more than anything! and that was the trip
Johnny and Mine Story we are writing together, Part 1
I know it may be lame and you dont like it but hey you get that!
The morning bloomed with the wonderful scents of spring, flowers budded beautifully and the sun shone brightly. She opened her eyes gentley and sat up with grace, pulling her blankets from her warm body. She lifted herself from her bed and wiped her eyes of crust as she walked to her wardrobe.
As she open her wardrobe, she thought to herself about what she was going o do today but her thoughts were interrupted. ” grace grace come down here” yelled her mother from down stairs. ” good god what does this women want ” grace whisper under her breathe as she ran down the stair. Just to find her mother fallen down and laying on the floor
As Grace dashed to her mothers side ignoring the mess that covered the living space, she crouched beside the old women trying not to let shock take over her limbs and mind. She noitced blood pooling around her body, her mothers eyes were wide open and almost empty. Pain could be seen in her face and tremmors were causing her legs to shake, her mouth was ajar and she looked at Grace seeing her with loving pain filled eyes.
Her mum pulled her down witht he last strenght she had, and whisper in her ear ” Grace, oh my darling grace your so beautiful, you can do anything you want to do but dont let them take you, bring you down or anything, im sorry Grace, I love you, i always have”. grace held her mum as she took her last breath. grace didnt know what to say her a million quesstions running through her head. she looked down at her my now stone cold, pale and lifeless. grace stood up and ran up stairs.She jump on ripped her bag from.under her bed and started chucking clothes into the bag til she couldn’t fit and more. She grabbed the bag and ran down stairs she didn’t know what to do how to cope she just wanted out. when she got to the kitchen seeing her mum she looked at her walked over and as a tear running down her she closes her eyes and get a rug to lay over her. Slowly Lilly the rug up she noticed her nuns necklace she pulls it off and places it on herself. She gives her mum one last kiss on her head and whispers I love you too. Then finally laying the rug over her head and heading towards the door
The morning air seemed to be filled with something ominous as she drew in the wave that blew past her, when she flung open the front door. She took two steps at a time as she hopped down the front steps trying not to lose her feat. Grace felt a chill creep from her neck to her heart, the chill turned to a soothing warmth as it reached her heart, she stopped her brisk walk down the front garden path as she realised her necklace was glowing a dull violet. Grace stared at the cool soothing light for a moment in disbelief, rubbing her eyes she says aloud “Am I going crazy? What’s going on?”
She looked back at the house and saw a light glowing she run back inside, and there was a box she looked out it. the box had the same glow she looked for a key hole but couldnt find it! BANG BANG, she went up to the door and went to open it but couldnt open it something was holding her back! force of some sort she couldnt do it! she pears through the window and sees two big muscle guys in black suit. BANG BANG there doors goes again. Grace runs to the safe spot in her house, her mother was always paraniod something like this would happen. Grace stood there it seemed alot smaller in there to what she remembered when she was younger. BANG BANG bANG CRAAASHH grace looked out the hole and saw the door lying there. Shit she whispers under her breathe. The one of the guys walked closer to the hole she was looking out off. The next thing she knows is a hand over her mouth pulling her back…
Grace fell to the dirty garden bed holding her head, it rung with pain and her eyes stung with images, she closed them tightly. The pain subduded after a minute and she opened her weary eyes. Grace shut her eyes and re-opened them when she saw she was back outside “What’s going on?” she said aloud. Images ran through her head, ‘Wasn’t I inside?’ she asked herself, ‘Didn’t someone’- Grace shuddered as she remembered a strong hand pulling her from her ‘safe’ place. Pulling herself from the ground she dusted herself off and touched a finger to her Mothers necklace, it felt warm as it let out a small soothing buzzing noise.Grace felt calmed and painless as the buzzing slowly disapeared, she turned to the road, a black car was speeding down the road. Grace remembered a hand pulling her from the ‘safe’ place. “The box!” she yelled as she turned on her heels snatching up her bag. Grace ran up the stairs and entered the front room, she pulled open the old antique cabnet. As the cabnet door opened the box glowed a dull red and a buzzing noise radiated from the box. Grace went to reach for the box but the closer her hand got to the box the louder the buzzing got, each inch her hand drew closer, the box changed color. Grace’s neck became warm, then cold, then very hot. When Grace’s hand took hold off the box, the glowing red turned into a viabrant purple, it shone brightly and Grace squinted and put the box into her bag.
What on earth Graces says out loud as she drops her bag in the cabinet. Grace mind is completely blown she walks through to the kitchen. When grace reaches the sink, she feels a presence in the room so she turns around and is shocked to see her mother! “mum” graces says, but gets no response “mum is that you answer me!” she still get no response. Grace is now shaking she cant control it, she reaches for a glass out of the cupboard and pulls it out but the glass drops and smashes on the floor because she was shaking so much. Graces slowly bends over and to the sink and turns the tap on and forms a cup with her hands still shaking so much that it hardly hols any water, she splashes it on her face ” this cant be realy this cant be”. Then she feels a cold hand on her shoulder. ” grace there is something i need to tell you about a family ” Her mother says ” Grace sit down please there nothing to be scared of any more your mums back!” Grace slowly moves over to an empty chair ith the aid of her mother. ” gGrace i know you hve alot of questions but im going to try my best to explain. Our family isnt an ordering family actually there isnt many people like our family only a hand full actually is still around and living. Grace our family goes back to an old old coven, that can jump worlds, realitys paradoxes as you could say. Yes i did die i have died many times this would be my 5th time, but every time i die i get brought back into another paradox and no longer can go into the one that i was in.” Grace looked at her mother and stared she wanted to ask more thing more questions but couldnt all she could do was listern
Pisces and Cancer: a match likely to be beneficial. Pisces provides romance, while Cancer offers stability. They both have an active imagination but Cancer is more active so he/she could help Pisces to turn dreams into reality. This is a perfect combination that may end up in marriage.
I’m sorry that you nissed your race and don’t fucking blame me it’s not my fault. Want someone to blame racing radio for messing around!
secondly ever abuse me ever again I will fucking rip your throat out so there is no more complaints from you!
Also don’t have a go at me for play “shit music “. Maybe if your so fucking perfect you should yo my shift for me I think that sounds great!
So just to maje things clear ever fucking abuse me , conplaing about the music I play, say I’m doing a shit job you why don’t you fucking taje over and see how easy it is to do since you think that! And seriously fuck off and leave me the fuck alone or I shall fucking kill you you fucking stupid bitch! And yes I can say. Bitch on the radio! It is a female dog!
Pisces needs a dominant partner of role model in their life or they will very easily fall into a pit of self-pity and self-undoing. When they are independent and inspired by life’s events, their creativity comes shining through but they are unable to be on their own for long before they start dreaming in their imaginary world of happy people and happy endings. They need other people to keep them grounded and on the right track.
Pisces and Friendship:
Pisces will go out of their way to help a friend. They are extremely sensitive and loyal. They will take a friend’s problem and make it their own and suffer with them. This is the weak spot of Pisces but any friend of this zodiac sign should know that although they are attracted to people with severe problems who desperately need help, this actually does more harm them good. Even though Pisces will offer to make everything right, do not allow them to take on all your problems because they will lose their identity in your situation. They need a strong positive friend to make them strong. Pisces like adventure, new situation and social events. A Pisces friend will always have something exciting in mind and it is a very fulfilling, long lasting friendship.
Pisces and Business:
Pisces does not take well to a position of leadership or high business person, they are too sensitive and lacking in self-discipline and lacking self-confidence for a positions such as that. What they are good at is is writing, acting, poetry, or being musicians. Pisces are excellent at anything that tugs at the heart strings and mystical/spiritual. They are extremely creative and can use their skills of creativity and their understanding of people to inspire others. Unfortunately, most Pisces take the easy way out in life and never attain the degree of fame that they possibly could, they have to stop self-doubting themselves because they are capable of being good role models and leaders to others, people do look up to them.
Pisces and Temperament:
The Pisces personality is hard to pin down, it is very mysterious and elusive. Pisces are molded by their surroundings, they incorporate their experiences and surroundings into themselves. They have extreme compassion and they feel the pain of others. If something is wrong in the world that affects them, it affects them deeply, they take it to heart and feel extreme feelings regarding the matter. When they are happy, they are extremely happy and when they are sad, they are extremely depressed.
Pisces Deep Inside:
Pisces have an intuitive and psychic ability more then any other zodiac signs. They trust their gut feelings and if they do not, they quickly learn to because they realize that their hunches are usually correct. Pisces downfall is their sensitivity and their inability to reject another person. They do not like rejection and they try to treat others the way they want to be treated so they will rarely say no to a person for fear of hurting their feelings. They will help another person with their problems and like to do so because making others feel good in turn makes them feel good. Pisces is the zodiac sign of self-undoing. People born under this zodiac sign are not susceptible to bad luck and unfortunate events, they bring them on themselves by overindulging, laziness and a knack for picking poorly suited partners and friends. They want people in their life who stir their emotions because this helps them to practice emotional stability. The inner conflict of Pisces is extremes of temperament and conflicting emotions. They are trying to pinpoint themselves on the real world while their spiritual world can cloud their vision, they will try to escape or avoid a situation instead of confronting it. Pisces eternal struggle is to learn to use their powers and their imagination in a positive, productive way and vying for emotional stability by not giving away their emotions to everyone else, they need to help themselves.
Pisces in a Nutshell:
Pisces is the sign of mysticism, mystery and the spiritual unknown. Pisces live in two worlds, the real world and the spiritual or mystical world where they interpret what they see into what they want. They do this to avoid all the realities of pain and suffering in the world. They have extremes of emotions and feel both good and bad intensively. Pisces have formidable intuitive ability. Most Pisces are somehow involved with occult or spiritualism. Pisces are very good at understanding people for they have the ability to delve into the psyche and see behind a person’s motivations. Pisces are prone to drug addiction and indulging lifestyles because of their eternal search for themselves and their fear of confrontation and having to change a situation, also they justify drug use by allowing it to get closer with their ‘spiritual selves’. Once they aware this is why they are doing it, it will be easier to kick the habit. Pisces are not the pushovers that they may seem, in fact they have strength of character and will stand up for what they believe in and and they can do hard work for something they believe in. They can be very lazy but only in matters that they do not care about. Pisces is the most sensitive of all zodiac signs.
What it’s Like to Date a Pisces Woman:
Pisces women are very captivating and fascinating. She makes a man feel like a man because of her need for a protector and leader. She is charming, soft and feminine. The ultimate enchantress. She can see right through a man and she is not easy to fool, so any man better be straight with her and not lead her on, because instead of confronting him, she will simply disappear. She needs to nurture and will give the man orders, but only for his own good. She will make sure he is eating properly and getting enough sleep, sort of like a mother nurturing a child. What she needs in return is a man to protect and cherish her, make her feel like she is needed and loved. She might almost be clingy and dependent but never overbearingly. Her partner will become of better half. She needs patience and sympathy and you have to be gentle with her. Don’t poke fun or tease and definitely do not reject her harshly because she can’t stand rejection. She is extremely romantic and will lose herself in the relationship. The Pisces woman is the ultra feminine nurturer, the ideal woman for the right man.
What it’s Like to Date a Pisces Man:
Pisces man is is the ultimate romantic, the sensitive man who feels with a woman. Pisces male is the ideal zodiac sign for the woman who complains that men are not sensitive enough, this man is. However, he has such an ideal of romance that is unrealistic and will fall out of love when he realizes that there is no such thing as the perfect woman. This man lives in the world of dreams and he needs a woman to keep him grounded. He always seems to chose the wrong woman, or a woman he can’t have like a married woman that way there is no worry about becoming emotionally attached. He needs a woman who can dominate him, but very subtly. She has to be able to help him steer clear of bad habits and bad thoughts. Pisces man needs sensitivity, generosity and compassion, nurture him and he will nurture you back. A fulfilling emotional relationship for the strong yet sensitive woman.
How to Attract Pisces:
talk about spirituality, the occult, astrology, anything that is out of reach of the real world. They will easily get lost in a good conversation. Although they are attracted to people with severe problems who desperately need help, this actually does more harm them good. Even though Pisces will offer to make everything right, do not allow them to take on all your problems because they will lose their identity in your situation. They need a strong positive partner to make them strong. Pisces like adventure, new situation and social events and will be up to doing almost anything that you suggest. Make them laugh, they are usually melancholy and will be impressed if someone has the ability to make them laugh. They are not very conservative people so do not be afraid to talk about unconventional or strange things and tell them odd jokes, they will be impressed by that. They are suckers for flattery give them compliments and tell them in a roundabout way that you admire them. Be sensitive, generous and gentle, make them feel comfortable with you and make them feel good about themselves and all will be smooth sailing!
Sex With Pisces:
Sex with Pisces is an emotional and physical experience, and if you allow it, it will be a spiritual experience as well. Pisces are very good at, and love role play. Acting fully in their roles. They like to seduce. Role play that you are in an old fashioned brothel and get them to seduce you, they love erotic games for they are able to get completely involved and lose themselves in the erotic play. Pisces likes risque encounters and offbeat activities. A very fun partner for those who like different encounters and physical sex.